My full respect and admiration to the wonderful stephenie meyer she wrote the most fantastic twilight series and many of you my dear friends will know how much I adore those books. I love the films as well and have bought every book every film and I can only thank her for giving me a world in which edward exists, those twifans out there know what I mean ^_^
there is always a but isn’t there^_^ well it goes like this but I am so glad I am not her and she has my sympathy as well as my respect because she wrote such a fabulous book/s on her first go. Yup her very first go resulted in super success and yup I would love that success but every other book she now writes is compared to twilight. Every new venture, every new writing, anything it is all compared to twilight and no matter how good the rest is there will always be a core section of society devoted to that series that will always think oh its not as good as twilight was.
In fact I wonder if ms meyer herself has had those moments sat at home thinking but what if no one likes this ? this is not only ms meyer anyone who has resounding success with their very first effort at anything then suffers ever after the stress of matching that success. I think I would just buckle and find a corner in which to console myself I did good once, After all at least they hit spot on once right? Maybe they are happy specially ms meyer because the money made from that success means they can do anything else and not worry about paying the bills, except with true authors as opposed to people who just write, it’s not enough, none of it, the need to write and to write something that at the end of the day has not only been borne from our blood sweat and tears and yup all three have happend to me although in the case of the blood it was because I tripped over my shoe when getting up from my netbook after a particularly long bout of writing and my legs had gone to sleep, resulting fall produced tiny trickle of blood from bashed shin, but it still counts! ^_^ but it has to have satisfied something within us, I can’t adequately describe what it is but when having created something that is a part of us and it has somehow soothed something that was out of place in our mind then and only then are we happy and as creators the urge is back again after each urge is satisfied a new one is in its place, and it’s success for us is not measured on money-we like money we do – but it is measured on how we feel after we have created it if that urge is satisfied then we can go on and satisfy another urge, you see the thing is authors most of us anyways are quite a strange bunch how many people go to work say as an office clerk and say’ hey I don’t be an office clerk for the success I do it because I need to, I do it for me!, yup odd isn’t it being an author is the only career choice where people regularly exclaim they only do it for themselves, I have said it myself and I know it to be true I do write only for me and I still get shocked when someone reads what I have written and they like it. To illustrate a lovely person recently won a book of mine in a giveaway and they wrote a fab review gave five stars and everything I was over the moon and even as I read the review it was so good I was thinking they must have written it for someone else and mistakenly put it on my book it was for me but even now as I read those glowing and gorgeous words I am like I wrote that book they love? wow how cool is that ^_^
ahh there it is again that but, it sure pops up a lot, you see I never achieved world wide success with any of my books so far unless five million of you suddenly popped on amazon and made me a super star then I am still in a position whereby I have the freedom to write without any pressure, I can look at all my books and love them all and feel proud and know I can still create more without judgement, so there you go folks me and stephenie is both authors but i have a freedom she doesn’t so much as I adore all her books yes i own everything she has written not just twilight ^_^ but I also feel sorry for her and I could never guess at the pressure she must feel and I am so glad I get to just sit here and write anything I want. Of course I would be just as happy with the money so please don’t let me hold you back from rushing to buy my books ^_^
have a super wonderful day everyone, I am because after this I am writing my next super book ^_^, for those of you interested I shall put links to my newest published book and also a link to a competition for a signed print copy of that book but please my gorgeous friends it is only there for those interested so
no pressure ^_^
american amazon here
english amazon here
entry to give away here
and with all this writing malarkey i have learnt these past few weeks that it would appear i am an old stick in the mud, a person who does not want to keep up with the times, someone who does eschew the modern world.
now don’t get me wrong lovelies i does love the interwebby and i love the benefits the lovely internetty thing brings me i love my art programmes and the fact i can sit in bed and write books on my netbook. So as you can see i am embracing quite a lot of the modern world but writing as much as it brings me pleasure and yes i love it it also brings with it something i really do not like; ebooks.
now how terrible is it of me to say that? well quite terrible as i have quite a long kindle list on my pc and netbook and i love reading ebooks, and this is the crunch i do not like writing ebooks. See nasty author kizzy lee does not like writing ebooks. sigh. Nope it is the formatting, for one thing i hate formatting its like being stuck in the most restrictive word processing hell ever. Worse than when i was at college doing nursey stuff. yup i once trained as a nurse i was pretty bad at the ethics though sure i have mentioned in the past ^_^ i was all soul and heart but apparently nurses are not allowed that they have to put all their compassion away and treat no matter what very commendable; i just couldn’t do it, found myself saving children against parents wishes etc but that’s me, now back to the whole ebooks thing and after the formatting we have the whole restrictions thing.
god i hate restrictions, told you i was born a rebel without a cause, or more correctly i was born a rebel who will find many causes and my latest being i shall write in any style i want!, see i am a natural born artist i cannot help myself, i see a fancy font i want to use it, i see little curlicue fancy things i want to use them, i want to paint pictures and include them in my book, i already refuse to follow the so called rules of writing novels etc and now i refuse all rules governing ebooks, yes i refuse, and shall strike until either ebooks let me format as i want, fancy fonts and all, or just never do ebooks, i have in fact always had the first three of my books available on smashwords as many of you know and out of respect to smashwords and the fact they were the first and most helpful user friendly agent i met on my writing ladder to success, theirs is the only place my first three ebooks shall ever appear, now after much stress on my part i finally agreed to make in temero humus available through amazon kindle and it taught me that was it, no matter what anyone says i will never do another.
My books from in temero humus onwards are all only print and shall remain that way; through amazon in print, because that’s the way i like it. i like fancy fonts so there ….you kind of have to imagine me sticking my tongue out rather childlike at this point ^_^ but only if you want to ^_^
have a wonderful day my friends and don’t do stuff you don’t want to do ^_^ unless you have to because it’s important or someone’s life depends on it or your mum will get annoyed but as long as it is ok then don’t do stuff you don’t want to do ^_^ ok best go do some sewing now ^_^
so lately its been difficult; my oldest daughter now 18 and my best friend lost her boyfriend to a heart attack, he was 19. We knew he had difficulties with his heart but you just never expect the worst to happen. It affected us all and my daughter has been so strong through it all i am so proud of her, then she came to me crying her heart out and saying she did not want to lose my love and how sorry she was, i shushed her and explained there were very few things in life that would come between us and how i would love her no matter how bad it got, so tell me quickly did it involve murder, drugs, or kidnapping? this made her smile through her tears and i waited for some kind of reaction that she may have suffered through our fourth bereavement in two years, (yup it’s been a difficult couple of years see next year i aint allowing no one i love to die right see now you all been told) it is after all very difficult at such a young age to lose your boyfriend, she once more looks at me sadly and says ‘promise you won’t lose respect for me?’ i promises and then she says …………….i am gay. well the biggest sigh of relief from me and a hug and telling her how silly she was to be so upset over telling me, i was expecting anything from being pregnant to axe murdering, being gay is a personal feeling and certainly not bad, and most certainly not something to be crying about, yes i would still love her, yes i would still respect her, i explained she hadn’t murdered anyone i was fine, really as long as it didnt involve drugs or the cops i was more or less going to be ok and i was glad she didnt bake some damn cake to tell me ^_^, now i can understand a little why she may have been worried about not telling the neighbours this is a small town and it has a small town mentality it is a very judgemental place. Not quite caught up with the times or even the theory of evolution, but i was already not one of these folk and never really bothered with them so i was never going to have a problem and so now we have a new person to love in the form of her girlfriend and she is adorable and sweet and i welcome her being part of our family.
not sure when i am going to get round to telling her dad though.
then last week we learned of our fifth bereavement, sigh, back in the day, about 24 years ago now, when hubby and i met, we have at the time a group of friends, i lived in a house that was basically that last of bedsit land. Bedsit land was an idea, a way of living that grew up and came to strength in the 1980′s thanks to maggie thatcher, england had developed a sort of lost generation, it was my generation. We left school with no thought of a job because there wasn’t any. Unemployment was at all time high and where we live was always identified on any map, especially a map used in the news, as an unemployment black spot. So maggie had us all on social support benefits we were given a pittance to live on and one room to live in; the bedsitter.
I loved it and hated it all at the same time, being 15 at the time the first time round, and having just met my first husband, i loved actually having somewhere to live (had already experienced the idea of homeless and didnt like it, will talk about that another time) but at the same time it was a bleak existence and no prospects. eventually i took my life in another direction and roughly 9 years of being married to the first husband found me having had enough and leaving the squat we were living in in london and coming back to this ‘black spot’ or home as i was forced to call it.
it is in fact rather a nice little seaside town and i moved into one of the last houses still to have bedsits therefore i had one room and was in the throws of leaving husband number one, and the house i had this bedsit in was nice, the others lving in the other rooms were all men, but i felt happy, safe, comfortable, slightly emotionally spent as the first husband was a nightmare, intelligent and liked to play mind games at best and psychologically torture me on his not so good days. he had also turned into a junkie by that point. i hated him and everything that went with him.
like i say though i was lucky, i settled in quickly in the bedsit house and found my feet and a little job, and then fell madly in love with my now husband. at the time of the falling in love bit there was three other couples who also got together; as three of the lads i lived with all found girlfriends and we were one big happy bunch of people, it was a summer of love ^_^. of all the couples only hubby and i are still together but last week one of the lads in our happy little bunch of friends died. of pneumonia. He was 47. The funeral was yesterday.
and so like i say recently it’s been difficult.
i have also learned recently that the blog world is nicer than the facebook world and i am becoming seriously disillusioned with the whole idea, i have already left facebook once under my family name because i couldn’t stand the dynamics, and it seems it isn’t that much different even when you join as an author.
don’t get me wrong i have met some lovely people but it is weird how facebook always seems so superficial. no depth to anything, and i am so deep i have to remind myself to lighten up ^_^ but i do have a real difficulty with shallow people and lack of respect.
i was lucky when i came to the blogworld i found the most real genuine and wonderful friends, and i only went to facebook because of the golden rules of being an author, well i now say golden schmolden i aim to throw them rules away and although i will still keep a presence there i don’t believe it is as essential as they say to have facebook, twitter etc etc etc i have left twitter like months ago, i could not stand the constant adverts there was no conversation just adverts! and facebook is well all a bit silly, it is a huge group of authors all trying to sell each other their books, authors selling to authors, daft really.
i will still write, because i love it and i shall do it for the love of it i don’t like advertising or self promotion so i shall probably be the poorest author you all know but heck i got used to being poor a long time ago, more or less since i was born ^_^
so there you go my lovlies i have learned life is precious and sweet and oh too short, you never know what is round the corner, my young friend got 19 years of it, my older friend got 47 years of it, i am lucky i am still here and have more to come and i sure as heck am not going to waste it on facebook twitter or adverts!
enjoy life my friends good or bad it is life and we are lucky to have it.
oh by the way i am having another giveaway i told you i love doing them but this time you don’t even have to go over to my facebook page i have decided all you have to do is pop your name in a comment to this post saying i would like a free print copy of your book(in temero humus, on desecrated ground its a horror) thats right a real proper book not an ebook this one is only available as a print book anyways, and i will put all the names in hat along with the names from the facebook page and then first one picked out on 28th of this month wins the book and small gift. i have loved doing these giveaways its fun plus i love going to post office and sending my books all over the world, last giveaway was won by a lady in bulgaria! i had never sent anything to bulgaria before, so my lovely friends comment me and say you would like a book and you get a chance of winning and most importantly have a super day/evening/morning xx
ed note: before you read the letter, i want to link to a petition that someone started at change.org. many people seem to be coming here from other sources, and since they do not follow the blog, they don't know where to find it. also, i wrote on another post that i would like this letter to be used as you see fit- as a template for your own letter, as a jumping-off point for discussions/letters to the editor/local debates/anything else you can think of to get people talking about these issues.
i am lucky enough to have met some of the most wonderful friends here online and i value them all tremendously, one of them has tagged me in some thing called ‘The next big thing’ i think it is called it is a series of connected blog posts that has the ambition of going viral let’s help it along ^_^ there’s questions and stuff so here goes:
firstly a little about my gorgeous friend her name is Nene Davies and she is an author from Australia and she can be found here along with details of her work she is such a sweetheart and a wonderful friend i count myself lucky to have her as a friend and she is gentle and kind and caring.
now i suppose i best get on with some of the questions
1. What is the working title of your current/next book?
ok, the book i am working on right now is called Saudade and it is in the editing stage now.
2. Where did the idea come from?
well it is a mixture really i have always loved the slenderman story which is a sort of urban legend that has various episodes happening around the net but it went quiet at the same time as having scouted every last bit of information i could and devoured everything in sight i was bemoaning the lack of slenderman and was still writing my fourth book and my husband came up with an idea that i loved but won’t reveal now as i don’t want to give away spoilers ^_^ suffice it to say both my love of slenderman and my husbands idea came together and produced Saudade ^_^
3. What genre does your book fall under?
Sigh this is always a difficult one for me i always have to pick the genre horror but it never sits well with me, don’t get me wrong i love being a horror writer but i prefer words like sinister, spine tingling, there isn’t really a catagory i have felt happy with yet, you see horror means something different to others they expect gore and slash happy stories/films and i do not like such films or books, i like stories or my stories anyway to have something to them i like scene setting, i like build up and i love to chill and spook people but i don’t like gore and i only include it when the story itself demands it, i still suffer stories taking control they write themselves through me ^_^ often have a paranormal edge although again i never write about vampires or wolves, i prefer ghosts ^_^ i love all things ghostly so the best label/genre i can think of is ermm ghosty kinda horror but not gore unless the story calls for it writer ^_^
4 . What actors would you choose to play the part of your characters in a movie rendition?
hmm a hard one that umm i suppose for my main character i would want someone like kate hudson perhaps as for the other characters i would have to have help from my director and i would want only one director Terry Gilliam my fave director of all time ^_^
5. What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
Ouch! that’s a nasty one ^_^ ok i shall take the opening page of my book and show you oooh a sneak preview coming up folks ^_^
ok this is quoted direct from my opening page of my book:
Saudade (Portuguese): The feeling of longing for someone that you love and is lost. Another linguist describes it as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist. (from the book Saudade copyright kizzy lee 2013)
6. Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?
it will be self published
7. How long did it take you to write the first draft of the manuscript?
about two weeks but i then spent about two months so far editing it ^_^
8. What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?
ermm i don’t know i haven’t read anything quite like what i have written so as of yet i have nothing to compare it to.
9. Who or what inspired you to write this book?
slenderman i loved the whole thing so much i had to write my own extension of that on the first page i have written this book was inspired by slenderman ^_^
10. What else about the book might pique the reader’s interest?
not sure it all depends on if they like murder, and of course slenderman ^_^
phew the end of the questions now all that remains is for me to hand over to the person i consider the Next Big Thing so i will have a good think there are such a lot of talented writers out there
Jess Sturman Coombes a wonderful author of thriller action books i have read and loved her work so to me after careful thinking i have put forward this wonderful writer as my considered Next Big Thing.
also my lovely friends don’t forget the giveaway is still on just click this link> FREE GIVEAWAY SIGNED PRINT COPY OF CLOCKWORK LIFE PLUS GIFT then click the giveaway button thats it ^_^
have a wonderful evening my gorgeous friends
hmm soo quite a lot of heated debate going on this week and i know i have touched on intellectual property(it actually lead to my taking down and not using of any picture other than those i have produced myself and lead to my producing my pages of free graphics its about respect and finding a way for people to use these things without worry) before but really this case takes the biscuit first (and i will provide screenshots for anyone who asks the only reason i do not show them on this page is because there are names on the pictures of people who are not involved so i will not post them here i would remove all names not connected before being shown) so to outline then a person took the work of an author this work was what is known as an arc, which is an abbreviation for advanced reading copy, and then in a conversation with another friend offered this arc when said friend complained of having ran out of steam/ideas etc for her writing the words used clearly showed the offering clearly mis- intent and clearly showed a complete lack of respect for the author and as a new author myself was horrified, how ever this whole situation was then hijacked by a rather nasty personality who by their own admission is enjoying the uproar. my point to all this is regardless of whether anyone thinks the original person accused did anything wrong is now become lost on the ensuing vitriol and attacks of the uninvited self styled crusader or well at best mis informed and at worst someone who supports this sort of behaviour, intellectual property rights are something that we all have to get used to in this brave new digital world we live in now and anyone who works hard on any piece of work deserves the respect and the credit for that and should be able to trust others not to offer this work for the use of others, the woman did post an apology but in my eyes it was not enough, perhaps others disagree, i have yet to meet them the only person so far to have argued the case is the bully who waded in attacking everyone and anyone who offered an opinion. I have learned a great deal from this and it proved my naivety i did think people were trustworthy clearly they aren’t and i will now rather sadly never let any of my work go to anyone before publish date. so folks especially those of us out there who are new and still learning authors be aware once your work leaves your hands there are others out there who will think nothing of letting others use and therefore it is stolen.
so second foul and this is just as sad and in many ways worse there is a dog food firm who manufacture the treats waggin train dog treats and it seems there is a whole wealth of information out there showing a great deal of people who firmly believe they have lost their dogs, yes that right they believe these treats have caused the death of their beloved dogs, now i had not heard of any of this until today but i am horrifed and feel duty bound to share with as many of you as i can about this i adore my dogs they are my family and i am sure a lot of you also have babies you adore in doggy form please then be aware that waggin train dog treats have killed dogs there is a documentary apprently i have not seen it but i have found the following:
ok now to end on a lighter note i love the giveaways as you know so far the winners of both whisper whisper and Echoes are very happy and that is just great makes me super happy ^_^ so i have another giveaway woot ^_^ again the prize is a signed print copy of my book A Clockwork Life and small gift, there are gifts suitable for men also so don’t hold back all you blokes ^_^ as it happens the previous winners were women and received a owl necklace and a peacock necklace as well as their signed books so peoples pop over and visit this page and click the giveaway button that’s it ^_^ you are in with a chance of winning the prize which will be drawn on the 28th of this month don’t worry though folks i love the giveaways so even if you don’t win this one i will be having another ^_^ for any interested i am now on first edit of my latest book and there will be a grand launch i am hoping for that and i have connected with a wonderful jewellery maker Alchemy Divine to make a one of a kind necklace for the book launch oooh i am so excited ^_^ so lots happening and loving it hope everyone had a wonderful xmas and new year
take care now
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how we extend our favourite time of year ^_^
in our house today is christmas eve eve, yup you read that right two eves because it’s the eve of christmas eve ^_^ you see in our house this is our absolute favourite time of year our decorations have been up ages and we have been singing christmas songs and we absolutely cannot have only one real christmas day so we have the day itself and we have christmas eve and we have today christmas eve eve.
this is the day where we sit in jamas all day- if we can – and watch all our favourite xmas films-we have watched polar express a fantastic xmas film i recommend you watch it no matter what age you are and then you will know what i mean when i say i can still hear it-today is the day i plan to have everything ready for all shopping done, all things wrapped, there should be nothing left for me to do but relax be with my kids watch xmassy stuff- it’s the run up to tomorrow ^_^
on tomorrow the wonderful xmas eve we have certain little traditions we have to observe to properly begin the xmas period, on the morning we all have to and i can hear the groans now ^_^ but we all and yes all does mean teenagers and in fact ALL my children, have to sit and watch it’s a wonderful life with me, it happens every year and every year i cry ^_^ it’s a tradition ^_^ shortly after we have put on the snowman and we have all badly sung along to walking in the air- santa has his first visit- yup we love santa soooooooooooooo much we have to have visit us twice ^_^ back a few years ago when the kids were little and i loved xmas too much to wait patiently ^_^ i decided santa should pop by on xmas eve and give the kids a treat and a pre-xmas present, our xmas eve present , just one small gift and the kids love it although i do think they have got big enough to question-yesterday i was all like oooh wonder if santa will pop by with our xmas eve presents and my son said only if you go to the toilet mum i raised my eyebrows and questioned him feigning innocence but he laughed and said but he only comes when you go spend ages in the toilet mum then when you come back down from the bathroom he has gone
so this year hah the tables are turned my oldest and i have a plan and yes it is a cunning plan ^_^ we shall make them all watch it’s a wonderful life, we shall then let them watch something they actually want to watch, then my oldest will say she is going to visit her friend, but really she will pop upstairs and put on the santa suit-yes it was me all along bet you never knew ^_^- and the kids will be sat watching the TV with me wondering whats going on, they will be waiting for me to go visit the bathroom and i won’t -cue evil laugh oh no wrong plot- so when they are all agitated and telling me to go to the toilet there will be a knock on the window and lo and behold santa! they will for once see and santa together in the same room thus dispelling all myths that santa is me ^_^
part of me is gutted of course i have played this role for years and loved it every time i love my santa suit and beard and i love practising my ho ho ho and i love sitting them with me for photo with santa and giving them their little present but it will all be worth it for the look on their faces to see it is not me ^_^
our next little tradition is that on xmas eve the kids give the presents they have bought for each other, this one started because they get so many on the day itself not only santa but family as well and it meant the small ones they bought each other got lost in the marathon of opening so i thought it would be nice to have their family ones on xmas eve that way they get an extra day plus they all have the time and space to open the little ones they have saved up their pocket money to get -which in my mind makes them more valuable- and the atmosphere between siblings is all lovely and they like each other for at least ten minutes ^_^ don’t get me wrong my children love each other but that does not follow they like each other all the time it’s easy to love a sibling, but actually liking them is difficult when they constantly wind you up or ruin your make up or draw on your dress or hide your shoes or- well you get the idea ^_^
as it starts to get dark we have to -all of us- get out the plate with carrots and mince pie and glass of milk plus we put out santa’s special key so he can still get in when we are all asleep
so then tis finally evening and of course we all have to go to bed early because the earlier we go to sleep the quicker it is xmas day and i sit them all down and read twas the night before christmas which is a must no matter how old they get because i love it , we all have an xmas ev shower, which in our family always starts with the smallest getting the bathroom first and it then goes up in ages so when she is done and in bed my son will go and so it goes til they are all settled except the oldest being 18 and bigger than me means she doesn’t get told to go up to bed but she gets as excited as the rest and will probably go to bed earlier ^_^
then after making sure all are feigning sleep i have to get out the flour and make santa snow steps i have to eat and drink the milk, then hubby and i put out all the presents and finally collapse into sleep
so there ya go our christmas eve eve is for relaxing because as you can see i am darn busy on xmas eve, i love crimbo and i will always take this amount of joy in the magic of christmas it should be a magical time for kids and even a little for us growed ups too because to see the look on their faces is magic in itself
so now you all know i will be too busy these next few days to come and on chat to you all so a big huge thank you to all of you that read my wafflings and to those that drop by and chat a huge thank you and to anyone who has ever communicated with me thank you
i sincerely and genuinely hope all of you have wonderful holidays no matter what you call them no matter which label you work under i hope these holidays are all you want them to be and i hope in the new year you find happiness and success
your friend always
soooo this is a two part post
first i am here to tell you all about this fab new group thing i have been kindly allowed to join
this is a super group with a list of authors all with their own pages showing their super books with a bit of blurb about them about their books etc there is also helpful articles, writing tips etc and if you go to my page on there you will see a code which gives you 100% of my second book Echoes now how cool is that ^_^
also i have learnt something this week on the whole being an author thing and that is -giveaways are fun!- yes they are, the most immense fun i had never tried it before so on my facebook this week i dipped my toe in the water of giveaways and i loved it was exciting to see who won and i had a signed printed copy of whisper whisper as the main prize with a little gift bag which included a necklace, a badge, and a keyring i loved it when i got to see who won and hopefully i can get the package to them in time for crimbo ^_^
now you lovely lot i thought now i have used my poor facebook friends as guinea pigs and discovered the fun of giveaways i shall now run a proper one so to speak, in that i now know what i am doing ^_^ i swear last week i was rubbish hat to keep asking my daughter to keep clicking the button till i got it right ^_^ finally got it to work in the end but crikey , if you have a go yourself the giveaway app is quite easy to use it will let you ask one question for free after that you have to pay, but learn from my mistakes once you have finished sorting out the giveaway when you go to post it on your page it will look like it is doing nothing in fact when you go to leave the page you will get a message saying you haven’t finished you should stay on page , ignore it for some reason the post has already gone through but facebook won’t tell you that, just go to home or your own page (i always make separate pages one for each book and keep my author page for me) then you will see your post come up also in order to let everyone see it go to your admin part of your page and click share in the drop down list then it comes up in main timeline for everyone to see,
so anyway where was i ok i am now having another giveaway and all you have to do dear friends is go to this link and click the button in blue/green saying giveaway that’s it my dear friends the prize of signed print copy of Echoes, plus small gift will be battling it’s way through the post to one lucky winner who will be announced on the 28th of december ooh thats me excited i hope you are the lucky one ^_^
ok hope this works now wordpress does not like me today pfft
have a super day every one
ok i just been to the last ever christmas play i am lucky i have been through 4 children’s worth of plays and singing things and dancing things but today was poignant and lead to a tear or two, i have been so very lucky in life to have been given the wonderful opportunity of being a mum to four fabulous children is the greatest gift i have ever been given, tomorrow i am a whole year older and the kids ask me what i want yet all i can think of is nothing i have been given my children and that is more than enough, sometimes when i am alone and just have my thoughts for company i wonder what my other two would have been like, unfortunately i lost two babies, so i would have had six and then i think i would have been even more tired and even more penniless ^_^ but also surrounded by even more love, my first ever baby i lost at 18 weeks a boy i would have named cain, then i had my oldest now 18 and then my second now 11- who my gosh is so pedantic the word was invented just for her alone ^_^ she hurt her ankle in netball; i said take two painkillers and rest but she wouldn’t ,why? because -and you have got to love her for this, the box said to only take two if she was twelve and over, it is precisely three weeks time to her twelfth birthday, three weeks, but she would not consider at all taking two i tried to explain that the manufacturers would not see three weeks as a problem especially when she is tall for her age, but no the nearest she would accept was one and half, brilliant ^_^ i wouldn’t change her or any of them for the world, after this wonderful pedantic daughter was my baby sophie whom i lost at 5 months, now i had been very lucky i had tried and managed to conceive immediately because i so wanted twins and my second daughter and sophie were so close but then i lost sophie, i was very lucky though i tried again immediately and had my son, so this is just about a little less than a year between him and second daughter, then of course a few years later came my youngest who god help me is such a character ^_^ when people learn my son is autistic they often look at me with such sympathy and say things like ‘oh you poor thing that must be such a lot of hard work’, yet really my gorgeous son is, well he does have his own world and if this world encroaches on that then yes things can be a little difficult for him but not for me, if anything my youngest daughter is the one to challenge any parent ^_^ i don’t care how experienced you are as a parent you still would need a whole mountain of patience with my youngest ^_^ oh she is adorable, very pretty and such a soft sweet voice, so well mannered and people all love her, but, well she is a challenge, she suffers the worst night terrors so say good bye to regular sleep patterns, fine i can cope with that, she never and i mean never takes in even the most simple/important concepts, to this day we have our home decorated in dark colours; people see the living room and say oh thats lovely dark purple how courageous of you, hmm yes i love purple but it also means you don’t get to see the latest masterpiece my youngest painted/drew/smeared with sauce/glued/scratched/glittered unless of course you look round the room far enough to see the tv , yes she adorned that too, first she painted the whole screen with glue then glittered the top and across the screen then drew on screen with felt tip, i was only making the tea, i come in and lo and behold the new too damn expensive tv is now part of a glittery barbie world and we now can’t see half the people on tv because i cannot get that damn glue stuff off. no i won’t hide such stuff i can hear some people mutter in the background there, it’s like this- all my kids from the day they are born are encouraged to be as arty as possible, i am even guilty of buying arty stuff before new clothes or shoes, i am arty/crafty myself and i wanted each of them to feel that at any time they can produce wonderful pictures, and yes i have tried teaching the youngest til i am blue in the face that we only do this on paper but it just doesn’t sink in, my latest discovery of her’s has just happened i have just come upstairs to my bedroom where i sit and chatter to you lot here and discover she has drawn and written her name all over my tablecloth i have on the table next to my bed, ho hum. the walls glass windows, clothes, beds everywhere that has a surface she will add to that surface and this is just one of the more adorable habits we have grown used to , i am still working on getting her to flush the chain (toilet) sigh, she is six and she wants to go to disneyland for her seventh birthday next year i am working on her being able to use a bathroom without wrecking it and flushing the chain would be a start, if i succeed we go to disney, wish me luck ^_^ we have to hide all womens things like sanitary towels she has a lot of fun with them, i find them stuck in pretty patterns all over, we now have a high shelf she (hopefully) cannot reach, we have had to twice pay a plumber to come and sort out the toilet because she puts her dolls and teddies and just about anything she can fit down there, yes i have learned to have eyes in the back of my head, to accompany her at all times, and yes it really is a case of if the house is quiet then panic because you can bet your bottom dollar she is up to something ^_^ so my son he is no problem because i have a youngest daughter who is like all the naughty children you have ever met rolled into one gorgeous cutest little princess you ever saw^_^ she fools old women constantly she can charm them at a thousand paces away on account of her waist length ringlet (natural) auburn (again natural) hair they love her, saying all manner of sweet things that she just laps up, but she is very matter of fact, she is not rude she would never stick her tongue out or pull faces or anything like that but if someone smells she will tell them, well actually what she would do is ask them why they smell yukky, one of the lovely old women was so sweet and said ‘you have such beautiful auburn hair you are so lucky’ and my youngest said in a very matter of fact way, ‘i know,’ i at once said ‘oh honey please learn to say thank you not i know,’ she then turns to the old woman and says ‘and it is ginger by the way not auburn’, she will always insist on being ginger but it is too dark to be ginger she is quite definitely auburn, she is the only child i know of in the world who actually wants to be ginger, sigh and anyway i make my excuses as we leave i talk to her about being nice to people and speaking politely and every time she will smile nicely and say yes , yet within the next five minutes she will have destroyed/drawn on/wrecked something else, last night i am hoping though she learnt something of a lesson after popping her to bed i had to go in several times as she kept jumping on beds/running around/ launching herself off the drawers, so i had been in one last time with the idea that she either settle down or i may have to tell santa that she didn’t deserve her presents, this as always brings forth a yell of no and she jumps in bed once again pretending to be asleep, i sit down not even five minutes later i hear a massive clanging noise, i mean this is one big noise so i was convinced she had broken something i went in asking what she had broken and there she is crying her eyes out she says she has broken her head, turns out soon as i left the room she had started jumping from one bed to another her sister shares her room she wasn’t there but youngest is jumping from one bed to the other and they are opposite ends of the room so she had miscalculated and jumped too far and bashed her head against the wall, she had a little egg shape on her head and i decided she had to come back in my room and sleep with me, it was the only way she was going to be safe, i explained to her that apart from upsetting me, santa, and everyone else, if she had just gone to bed as she was told instead of being naughty then her head wouldn’t hurt, she agreed and came to sleep in my bed so let’s see if she attempts the olympics in her room tonight ^_^ my second daughter wants a gecko for her birthday but i daren’t get her one until i can think of a way to keep it safe from the youngest ^_^
so this may help to explain why evry time i write a post or write some of my book (i finished the first draft of my fifth book last night woohoo ^_^ ) i am surrounded always by assorted children and animals i am happy though because if they are here with me then they are safe and happy and i am happy just to be with them, so tomorrow i have already all the gifts in the world my four beautiful children, bumped heads, drawn on wallpaper, and all the other wonderful cherished and often exasperating adventures they take me on ^_^
have a wonderful day everyone xx