well today has been a long day! my oldest daughter had recently met a lovely new boyfriend, he seemed so well suited to her they had so much in common and the relationship blossomed its been only a short time but it was lovely to see, for once as a mum i felt she was with someone who loved as much as i did and treat her with the respect she deserved, then last night out of the blue he texted he wanted to finish, it was awful, my heart sank like a huge boulder in a small pond not only because my poor daughter was going through the pain that comes when your heart is truly broken, but i too had seen a wonderful future for her, she had been so happy, they never argued, they got on so well, it is one of those relationships that made you warm and fuzzy to see , two young people happy in love and no one could understand where this sudden bolt from the blue had come from, having some experience with men but more so thinking of the experience i had with her dad (hubby) i knew back at the beginning he was a commitment phobe, he periodically would freak at deciding he loved me and sack me for a week, then decide he loved me and couldn’t be without me, so i explained that some men freak themselves out when they realise their depth of feeling, they feel overwhelmed and even trapped by their feelings, so i wiped her tears explain to be patient and let this young man have enough space to think without letting go him altogether, they agreed to meet today to talk, and oh my gosh the nerves i had , it was worse than an interview i couldn’t sit the whole time she was gone, i just wanted so much that it would all work out for her, i kept telling myself if it was meant to work it would, i have an immense amount of respect for daughter and i knew she would handle it well i knew she wouldn’t push him and really i could give her no more advice than to breathe and be hopeful, let him know she was there for him, and so she went looking beautiful and as i knew she would, she handled the whole situation perfectly, even better than i would have done, i know when i see her she is turning so much a better person than me, i am so proud of her and more than that i am always finding each day how good a person she is, and how well she does, you wouldn’t realise she is nearly 18, she seems older and most definitely wiser than most people my age never mind those her age, so i paced the floor and i worried, i just hoped so badly to see her come in with a smile , it was only an hour but it felt like three but she came home and she was ok, phew, she had talked and they had agreed to be friends til he could get his head round everything and i was so proud of her and since this afternoon he has texted her constantly, so i am hoping loves young dream is alive and well, it’s not often the universe is kind enough to let two well suited people to come together and enjoy a loving relationship so i am hoping with all my might that this works out for her, so come on universe support this, you know you want to and you know its right!
on the other side of today the second daughter went bowling had a great time and is happy out with her best friend so that’s me happy 🙂
the son has decided the whole universe is wrong because only he likes sonic the hedgehog and is refusing to communicate because of this , he is stomping around saying how everyone in the world should be killed they are terrible people because they dont like sonic, so just another day there then, the joys of autism,
the youngest has had a lovely day overdosing on winx club in her pj’s so very happy 🙂 she said to me ‘why was i getting dressed?’ i was like ‘ um because i want to ?’ she said ‘but mum you’re not going out anywhere just staying in the house’ , ‘yup but i still like getting dressed’, ‘but its silly mum no one is going to see you’, ‘yes but i want to get dressed’, ‘but mum………’ i went in the shower and followed that by getting dressed 🙂