My darling friends thank you to any who have remained with me i appreciate your friendship to those who found other interests thats cool i have a short attention span myself so i am the first to understand go for it and be happy ^_^
so to briefly fill in lots happened, had heart to heart with hubby, everything back on track now marriage wise ^_^ woot, spent way too much time in hospital, talking to way too many consultants, doctors etc, got re-diagnosed from multiple sclerosis to ehlers danlos syndrome then back to hospital to so called specialists, finally ended up with a professor -whom i am still in two minds about whether i go see a lawyer about – he insisted on examining me naked? i did as i was told but felt very very awkward vulnerable and well, grubby, afterwards, and to cap it all he said it was all my own fault (yup folks i adore being in this much pain so much i just make myself endure it every minute of every day because i like it) his closing sentence after refusing to listen to anything i had to say but instead asking me about my relations with my husband ? once it was ascertained that my husband worked he looked down his nose at me and said “so you’re just a mother then so really no need for you to be here or wasting my time go home its all nothing to worry your self about go back to being a mother” making some kind of effort i tried to explain i was trying to carve out a career as a writer he looked down his nose once more and said “yes but you dont make a living out of it do you, your husband is the wage earner you are just a mum goodbye” by this time i believe i was only a inch tall and went home.
Hubby was already mad enough about whole thing i didnt tell him about the naked exam bit or he may well have punched the guy.
It got worse i was finally brave enough to go to dentist, woohoo, some of you may remember a few months back i made a deal with someone that if they were brave and gave up smoking then i would be brave and go to the dentists, they did, and so i did. Luckily dentists was good with cowards like me and drugged me for whole experience and i left with new teeth, they absolutely hurt like hell and still do ^~^ apparently they are temporary and i get to go back in six months and get new ones which i hope really do not hurt.
Now on to the really sad bit; a few weeks back now, my gorgeous wee pup my adorable chihuahua frodo got poorly and died the vet god love her did everything she could he was in pet hospital for three days but in the end there was nothing she could do and we lost our much loved friend and it took it out of all of us and as you can imagine i was shattered think i cried three days non stop, we brought him home and buried him in back garden but he left a huge hole in our lives. RIP my beautiful baby frodo.
After a short while it became obvious i need to have a little companion in my life i adore chihuahua s too much to not have one so a new baby came to join our family and his name is ozzy-he is a white chihuahua who is right now chewing the edge of my bed ^_^ gotta love them ^_^ he is completely an opposite to frodo but that is good i wanted one that was different so much i nearly got a girl but ozzy and i fell in love and so he is now a much adored part of the family
other things have happened i finished another book woot ^_^ it is still being draft proofed, i got three chapters wrote of next one then- wham life took over, and i cannot write whilst suffering from grief so i have not written anything since losing frodo but things are looking nicer now Ozboz has settled in and i feel happier so who knows maybe i shall write again tomorrow after church, beach with kids -we are having some kind of heatwave you know quite amazing for the north east; my kids have never seen this much sun! so we making the most of it and after all this i shall be exhausted but i will try to write; its nice to be in a frame of mind strong enough to do so.
so there you go my lovelies the last two months have flown by and i can only apologise for my absence but i know you will understand life takes over and sometimes you just have to go with it until it all settles down again, dust yourself off and deep breaths and smile and say-in the style of one of my fave films ever-‘tomorrow is another day’
ps gosh wordpress have been busy havent they? all changed from when i was last on, i am liking these changes wordpress keep up the good work and everyone else have a super weekend and be nice to each other and especially nice to yourself ^_^ love to all