you know what i learned

or

how to regain confidence in writing

guess who this is  no go on guess its charlie chaplin! i know right!  he was quite lovely ^_^

guess who this is
no go on guess
its charlie chaplin!
i know right!
he was quite lovely ^_^

well it kinda goes like this as usual i was having a minor fit about being rubbish at writing i have a little do with myself every so often usually after i have done a heap load of writing and this was no different i managed to get book one finished of my four part trilogy – a nod to my hero mr douglas adams there ^_^ – and as you do i had a minor breakdown after it thinking who on earth is going to want to read this? is it even worth going ahead and publishing, editing and all that nightmare, for me it was difficult to see a place for my writing in this world, i suffer from thinking everything fabulous has already been written and i have no idea of whether my stories have a place in the literary world,

guess what this is nope you have to guess  its like a zillion gallons of alcohol being poured away because it was during prohibition see  this is why i love history ^_^

guess what this is
nope you have to guess
its like a zillion gallons of alcohol being poured away because it was during prohibition see this is why i love history ^_^

i do what i always do and removed myself from my writing i put it away and took time out i played with kids i took my youngest out on a couple of day trips she attends a catholic school which is a fab school but it does mean she gets different holidays to others so she was off and the only one at home with me so i took her for some girly shopping bonding time mixed with a visit to the park and ice cream bar ^_^ anyway a couple days into my enforced time out from writing and yup another story hit me when asleep, i  had the most excellent dream! i have written it down to turn into a story and another came to me so there i was i already have a small mountain of ideas and half books -i force myself to finish one before starting another or i would have half finished stories everywhere- but this means my small mountain grew a bit bigger and i panicked a bit more do i write all these ideas? do i just think ahh they are only dreams stories who would be interested am i too influenced by things i watch listen to etc?

this just speaks for itself really

this just speaks for itself really although i would really like to penguin right now

 

so i played music as you know i am hugely into music i never play it when writing but when i want to relax, dream, or just cut out the constant chatter in my brain, then music saves me and lo and behold i found my new latest crush ^_^ blush^_^ yup i found little barrie and fell so completely in love with that gorgeous and fabulously talented barrie cadogan damn mr devil man when you gonna let me marry this guy ^_^ anyway i got a little sidetracked there ^_^ and yes i know i do still have a fondness for mr stockdale but heck he is but a dream and well barrie is just gorgeousness on legs so back to my epiphany

i was listening to and drooling over the fabulous mr barrie super guitar gorgeous man and it kind of clicked both wolfmother-my previous love and now little barrie  – my current love- have come along in recent years i believe wolfmother first played back in 2000 and not much later i think around 2004 maybe 2005 came little barrie so both these play the music that i die for, the music that makes me shiver when i listen, and they did it now , if i think back i once wrote a post lamenting the state of music today i was upset i thought music today had lost its voice

and i was wrong!

completely wrong! i have found so much new and superb music and of course i have fallen in love a few times – its a weakness i have- and then it occurred to me how much different is it when i worry about writing? and i worry that everything has been written! if there can be new and super music that gives people like me shivers then surely there can be new and super stories! there can and don’t call me shirley ^_^ so yes i have had myself a little epiphany along with a few crushes ^_^ so i felt good again i know some people out there like what i write and that is enough to know even one person likes it is great and really i would probably still write even if no listened but it is nice knowing that there is a place for me in the world of fiction and that is enough for me,

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also i think i have a poltergeist kitchen

no honestly! i swear right i go in to my kitchen normal kitchen right cupboards, pots that need washing etc just as it all should be right okay, so then i go do something i dunno watch telly or something right, obviously the kids are in and out they like to graze and constantly wonder in the kitchen seeing what we have, –  which is great if it isn’t mortgage week ^_^ gotta pay the mortgage man need a house to live in!, so anyways i goes back to kitchen like an hour later and lo and behold every single door to the cupboards is open! yup everyone one of them blighters open and every single surface is covered in packets, food, etc, now it wasn’t like that when i left it, hmmmm, so i shut all cupboard doors and do a quick general tidy, off i go again upstairs do stuff come back down and yup you guessed it every single door to every cupboard open! every drawer everything open! and yup every surface covered ! hmmm now i reckon its got to be poltergeists at work because it wasn’t me and surely it wasn’t the kids,hmmmm, no, definitely poltergeists ^_^

^_^

^_^

have a great day everyone and be careful you never know where those pesky poltergeists will strike next although i have a sneaking suspicion they have been in my bathroom, there appears to be towels all over the floor, and the shower is running all by itself, and yes i know the fact that my daughter is now blow drying her hair is a bit of a coincidence but i reckon i may get ghosthunters in see if they can get to the bottom of it,

love to all

xx

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9 responses

  1. I know what you mean abut thinking all the good writing has been done. But I love reading Dickens and just look at what came after him in the next 100+ years. Capturing the small thoughts that trigger a new stream of creativity is important.

    The picture of Chaplin is good. I saw a film about him when I was on a flight back from London recently. He was quite a man and came from very humble beginnings in the music hall. My father loved his films.

    Good luck with the poltergeists. They can be a nuisance. Just be nice to them 🙂

    1. that is such a good point i adore dickens also yet i never thought of it that way so thank you helped me a lot that did, it’s always good to be able to see something from a refreshing point of view i guess i do get bogged down in the actual mechanics of being an author i am simply no good a self promotion i have to accept that i work so much better if i am left alone to write in peace but writing is so much more than that it is all the selling that i don’ like and when it comes to selling thats when i lose my confidence i just can’t seem to sell myself ahh well maybe i can just be a silent author ^_^ and isn’t chaplin just the loveliest to me it shines out of that picture he had a heart of gold i am sure of it , always good to hear from you and yup i still suffer poltergeists ^_^ have a great day ^_^

    1. ahhh yes such is life ^_^ glad you stopped by and said hi hope you are having a lovely day ^_^

  2. Kizzy, you crack me up. And make me wonder. I think you must write more than most people I know put together, and you seem to have so many ideas. I figure there’s no way everything good that’s meant to be written has been written, things are changing so fast, I actually think it’s the other problem, that we’re not writing fast enough to keep up with how the world is changing. I hope you send your stuff out there.

    1. hey my lovely brother how wonderful to hear from you i did follow your advice my dear trentle i went to the gig and got a signed dvd it was a wonderful experience and i was completely starstruck ^_^ soon as i am able to i will write a blog post about it i haven’t been so well latel so its took me a little while to get back on fingers crossed i shall blog tonight after game of thrones ^_^ so thank you my wonderful brother thank you from the bottom of my heart because at the time i was so nervous and i listened to what you said and what others said to me everyone encouraged me to go and i am so glad i did though i was so nervous i was positively ill by the end of the night but i was all worth it you are a good friend and a good brother and i hope you are having a great day love and huge big brother hugs from a daft little sister who always suffers from being starstruck ^_^ think i hyperventilated all night ^_^be well brother trentle xx

      1. I am so glad to hear that you did it, that’s so awesome, you should post a pic of your autographed dvd. good on you, kizzy, you are far and away not daft at all, but eminently human and my sister to be sure.

  3. Thanks for visiting The Brass Rag. Come back and see us often. We’d love to hear from you.

    1. you’re welcome and i will, hope you have a great day be well and enjoy happy times ^_^

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